| Today started out really well.
I went to Einstein's to meet up with Anneliese. Ali, Maggie, Rebecca, and a few others were there as well. That was a pleasant surprise.
School was good as well. I think I did well on the second half of my math test. After I got home, I went out to visit Tyler at Einstein's. He made me an incredibly tasty coffee drink. Oh, and the drive home from school was wonderful. There's this weird feel in the air that just gets me really excited about autumn. It's my favourite season. This morning, even, there was this feel to the air. I can't explain it. But it's this certain feel, and certain scent, and I'd never been so excited for a season to come. So then, I go to work to visit Rachel, and Haley & Mandy were there as well, which was really nice. We started making tye-dye t-shirts, which made my day even better, because it's just a fun thing to do. Maggie Mason came while we were dying them, so that was cool. I love her!
Anyways.
Later, Hillary and Maggie Messinger visited, which was interesting. haha.
Tyler and Hunter stopped by later as well, because I told them they could also make shirts. So, we made shirts, and talked. It was interesting. Hunter did the robot dance, while wearing the cow head. That made my day. Also, while Tyler and Hunter were there, Kayla and Stephanie stopped by, which was cool.
I had a lot of visitors tonight. I'll stop babbling.
This truly is a pointless entry. I got home around 10:30, and was pleased with how my day went.
Then around 11, I hear the phone ring, but my mother picked it up quickly. I didn't know why. So a few minutes later, I walk out of my room, to find my mother walking up the stairs, looking upset.
I asked her if she was alright, and she shook her head. I asked her what was wrong, and she said it was Ganny. (My grandmother.) I asked if she had passed, and my mother nodded. I didn't know what to say, and just started crying. It was the first time I'd actually hugged my mother since my grandfather, Papa, had died. I can't stop crying, and I feel like an idiot, but I'm going to try to be happy this week. My grandmother doesn't want to have a memorial service or anything, so only my mom is going to fly down to Florida this weekend. I don't know when I'll be going down there. I really wish I could stop crying.
Hopefully tomorrow will be better. I'll be hanging out with some good friends, so that should keep me happy. alskdjf. The sad thing is.. my grandmother was perfectly fine a week ago. She's been dealing with lung cancer, and it finally spread to her bones. Out of nowhere, this past week, she's been completely helpless. She went from driving around and laughing, to barely being able to move or speak. People had to lift her out of bed to bathe her, or to feed her and such. She had these people from Hospice there 24/7 taking care of her, and said she probably wouldn't make it to next week. On the drive home from school today, I remember thinking, "Hey, it's almost the end of the week, and she's still alive! Ha!" ...alskdfj. She went in her sleep, though. I guess that's making it a little easier to deal with. They gave her medicine so she wouldn't feel too much pain anymore. It just hurts to think of how helpless she was. I can remember talking to her on the phone just before this last week where she was completely out of it. I could hear the little bursts of air from her oxygen tank over the phone. I can remember ending the conversation by telling her how much I loved her multiple times, and her saying the same to me. alskjdf. My step-dad was telling me to try to hold on to that.
gahhh. I'll stop babbling about this.
I'm just really upset. I just want to be happy. gahhhh. I need to think of it as the best thing to happen to her at this point. She was going through so much pain, and now she won't have to deal with it anymore. I don't know.
ahh. alskfj. arrivederci. |
